Abram was born one month ago this past Sunday! What a month it has been!Although Abram and I have not been home a lot the last month, having a baby and being home with him has been every bit as much of the dream I dreamt for so long!
I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE BEING HOME! My favorite thing to do first thing in the morning is to open the blinds in the living room to let the light in. Then I stand there and think, I really get to stay home and take care of my baby and my husband and my home? I still can't believe it most days! I love that I can keep my bathroom clean daily. I love that I can dust-bust our kitchen floor and keep it clean. I love that I can keep up on the laundry. I love that I can watch Abram stretch when he wakes up from his naps. I love seeing all the little faces he makes. I love rocking him and talking to him. I love that Jason and I can spend much more quality time together at night because I don't have to do the dishes and laundry, etc. The list could go on and on.
There are a few things that have surprised me about the first month:
- I expected to have some sort of major break-down once I got home and started this new chapter of life, since I don't adjust well to change. But, it hasn't happened yet. I'm thinking either I am still in the "honeymoon" phase or maybe it won't happen at all . . . since I have anticipated, prayed for, longed for, waited for this time for SO LONG! Perhaps God is just allowing me to enjoy it without a break-down. Only time will tell I guess.
- This first month really has NOT flown by too fast. I'm surprised and thankful for that. Since we have waited for this time for so long (and been able to hear so many people say how fast the newborn stage flies by), I have intentionally tried to make the most of every day with Abram. We try to hold him as much as we can since he will only be so small for a short time. Every day I try to soak in the faces he makes, what he does with his hands, the size he is, etc. I am very task-oriented, but I am trying to spend as much time with Abram as I can so that when I look back I don't regret trying to get so much done (my usual mode of operation) that I missed more time with him.
- I'm surprised that getting up in the middle of the night to feed Abram has not been so bad. I think it helps that I am reminded often of all the times I cried myself to sleep at night, longing to hear a baby crying in the other room. I'm so thankful to have a baby to get up in the night with.
Okay . . . check on the belly on our little guy! He is definitely growing! This picture of his face is probably my absolute favorite so far. Almost every day I can't believe how beautiful he is. I love just looking at him. He has smiled a few times in his sleep and I know that "real" smiles are supposed to start around 6 weeks. I've already decided that the first day he actually smiles at me, I might just melt to the floor.
Looking like a little man in this cute outfit from Grandma Rhonda.
So sweet.
He is always doing something with his hands and arms.
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