She's Gone

Leti is back in Texas.

We're back from taking her to the airport in Kansas City.

Jason is at his part-time job (to help with our next adoption).

Abram is sleeping.

I let Abram play in the water in the sink for a long time when we got home (he endured a very long ride to KC and back!).

When we went in his room to put is p-poppers on he immediately pointed up to the wall where pictures of his birth family are (we usually look at them before he goes to bed). I said "Where is your Tia Leti?" He pointed exactly to the two pictures of her. And I completely lost it! Abram played with his music box (from his Tia Leti when he was born) while I cried and put on his p-pops.

I put Abram down to bed with the sound of his music box like we do everynight. But, tonight when I laid him in his crib, I was overcome with the same feelings I had right after we brought him home at birth.

THIS. FAMILY. GAVE. ME. THE. MOST. PRECIOUS. GIFT.

I am a weeping wreck. Boo-hooin' as Leti would say!

So many emotions, it is hard to figure out all the reasons why I am crying so much. I guess the bottom line is that Leti is just part of us. Part of us in a way I cannot explain with words and part of us in a way that only the Creator of the universe could make possible.

We had the most amazing four days with her. God did more than we could have asked or imagined. And Leti would say the same.

I'll be posting about our weekend this week, but for now here is one of my favorite pics from the weekend.

Someone sure loves his Tia Leti.

Open Adoption: Not So Simple Math

Jason came across a great New York Times article from Jason Kovacs, an adoption advocate whose blog Jason follows. The article is so great and worth the read! It does a great job of expressing some of the beautiful and painful truths of open adoption . . . some of the things I have felt but never been able to put in words and most likely some of the things Abram's birth family has felt as well.

Speaking of Abram's birth family, we got a package from Tia Leti shortly after Abram's birthday. It was full of many priceless photos and notes. My favorite picture is of Abram's sister, brother and Tia Leti, singing and clapping with smiles on their faces . . . with a birthday cake with ONE candle in it sitting in front of them.

They were singing Happy Birthday to Abram and celebrating his birthday. In Texas. Hundreds of miles away.

How incredibly sweet and priceless is that?! In addition to cake they had pizza and the kids wrote letters to Abram. Tia Leti is the best!