God Found Us You

This picture is from a couple weeks ago on a Saturday morning. 

Everyone in their p-pops and the girls have their sleep caps on. These sleep caps are AWESOME and can be purchased here. (All the proceeds go to the Etsy shop owner's adoption. In communicating with her, I found out they are adopting an infant domestically, BUT the birth mom happens to originally be from the same country my kids are from. CRAZY!!)


The boys have always loved sitting on our laps and reading books. But, in the last couple weeks whenever we sit down to read books (outside of our night-time routine) the girls immediately come to read books with Jason or I also.  I don't know if their language has hit a new level where they understand more or what, but I am LOVING that they like to have us read books to them. I also find the girls looking at books on their own   throughout the day, which they never used to do.

Late this morning I sat down on the couch and told the boys to each get a book. Claire brought over a book and Zoe brought over a big stack of books, too. I read and read for 30-40 minutes. It was wonderful.

We have several "adoption" books in our book cabinet, but they are just mingled in with other books. I have never made a point to specifically read the adoption books to the kids and we honestly haven't read many of them at all yet (you know how kids get on a kick with a certain few books and just stick to those for awhile). But, the very last book in Zoe's stack was "God Found Us You."  It is the adoption version of "God Gave Us You," if I am correct.



I remember reading through that book when I got it, back when Abram was born. I honestly don't think I've read it since. I started reading it to all the kids this morning. Here is a portion, near the end of the book:


"How come I couldn't stay with the mother who had me?"


"She must have had very big reasons to give you up (I like to say "to me" instead of "up"). She must have thought it was best for you . . . I think she prayed like crazy that you would be safe, Little Fox. I think she prayed for me as much as I prayed for her." {Tears started running out of my eyes .} Mama's voice got all whispery. "And God answered both our prayers." {More tears.}


"I came then? To you?"


Mama nodded, happy tears in her eyes. "You came then. When God found us you, you made me the happiest mama in the world." {Trying to control myself, but the tears came stronger.}


"Mama, will you be my forever mama?"


"Always and forever. No matter what," she promised. "This is where you belong. Here, with me, my sweet child. You are mine. The best gift in the whole world. I will always love you and treasure you and celebrate the day you came, the day that God found us you."

I was all-out bawling as I tried to finish reading the book. My poor kids, all snuggled in close to me as I was crying my eyes out. After the book was finished Abram looked at me like, "seriously, mom, why are you crying?" But, the girls both seemed to get the gist of the book. I was able to talk with the girls about it and we actually read parts of it again together. I was able to tell them, using the language of the book, that I waited and waited for them and prayed for them while they weren't here yet. I also told them that their coming into our family made me the happiest mama in the world.

While totally unintentional, it was a pretty weighty moment. I'm continuing to pray that God will use it to help  their hearts how much we love them and want them.