A Beautiful Little Glimpse

Yesterday was HARD. Harder than hard. I texted Jason at 3:00p and told him I was about to lose my mind! The girls were both doing crazy behaviors that I did not know how to address and it was maddening. Fortunately, Jason was already planning to come home at 5:00p (not the usual 5:45p) AND it was date night. Hallelujah! (We purposely made date night Wednesday night because by the middle of the week I am definitely needing a break.)

My mom and her husband watch our kids every Wednesday for date night (what a blessing!). When we got home last night she told us that Isaiah was disobedient the whole night. She said at one point she laughed because she knew that I was getting excited that he was being more disobedient. We, too, laughed when we heard all the crazy things he did. He is yet to show those true colors with us . . . I'm sure because he knows he will be disciplined for it, but this is another good step in the right direction of healing for Isaiah.

This morning the kids and I made a card to send to one of the in-country staff members with our agency - one of the women our kids still ADORE. I got out a pen and wrote a little message from each of the kids (even Abram. He talks about her, too, since all the other kids talk about her):

I love you M. I like you. I am come on bigger. I come see you and your mom (the mom of this woman was the kids' foster mother). I like basketball and bicycle. I save money to buy something for mommy de M (a little French thrown in there!). My birthday is in the summer, August 19. Can you come to my birthday? From Zoe


Hi M. Basketball, soccer and football. And bat for baseball. I like to ride my bike (tricycle). I have big, long legs (I helped with that one!). Bye. Isaiah


Hi M.. I am Abram. Brother for Isaiah, Claire and Zoe (Zoe helped with that sentence).


Hi M. I see you again. I am 10 years old. My birthday is July 25. I turn 11. I like play volleyball. Now at school home. Sometime I go to C to see you again. Keep helping girls and boys have no mom and dad and baby have no mom and dad. Bye. Claire


"KEEP HELPING GIRLS AND BOYS HAVE NO MOM AND DAD AND BABY HAVE NO MOM AND DAD."

OH. MY. GOSH. It took me a second, but once I realized what she was saying . . . and that she said it totally unprompted, my eyes filled with tears. We had not been talking about anything like that leading up to writing our notes. It just came out of her heart. Wow! I began talking to her about how I believe God has given her a special gift to love girls and boys and babies who don't have moms and dads (we have talked about this briefly with her in the past). She nodded her head in agreement. I so wonder the plans God has for this girl.

And Zoe. HOLY COW is God working. After the difficulty she had two nights ago (and yesterday), she wrote a card to her dad for his birthday. The things that came out of her heart and mouth for me to write are ASTOUNDING. ASTOUNDING! I am dying to share what she wrote, but I need to save it for Jason to read on his birthday. After I helped Zoe write what she wanted to write, I gave her a big hug (well many hugs as she was saying what she said) and at the end I told her that God is healing her heart.

After these two episodes with my daughters, the emotional closeness between us during lunch was higher than almost any other time in the last six months.

God is doing it.

He is attaching them and healing them.

And He let me see a beautiful little glimpse today.

This is such a roller coaster ride, but today I am enjoying the view from the mountaintop.