Just What I Needed

It is nap time and I was just reading some blog posts in my Google Reader. I read this one (http://cassadas.blogspot.com/2011/12/pain.html) from a mom who recently adopted and I almost gasped because it nearly identically described my day. (For some reason I couldn't post the link - I have no idea why, so I'm posting the actual post below.)

Pain

we have stretches of days where things are pretty good.
trust is building on all sides.
and peace settles in.
there are just moments of pain.

{"pain" - it's the word i use. i can't even describe it. a friend asked me to the other day. i stumbled and eventually opened my mouth and nothing came out. if you've been where we are, you know. if you haven't, i don't even know how to describe it. but pain seems to encompass a lot of what "it" is.}

and then there are days like today. it's been less than 4 hours. but it's already been a DAY of pain.

these are hard ones.

when i literally feel sick to my stomach. and question and doubt and run back to Him a million times over.

we'll get through it. that is helpful to know - now that we've been through this cycle many times.


and it will be fine, even good again.

but we do have these days and they are hard.
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I am so thankful for other Christ-following families that have gone before us (even if only a few months before) so I can know that what I'm feeling today is "normal." I did actually feel sick to my stomach and have doubts. I'm so thankful God provided this exactly when I needed to read it!